i couldn't do anything

i could hardly found the happy soul in me right now. i don't like it this way but i couldn't help. i always thought myself as a positive thinker because i will try to think the other way round whenever there's any problem. this time its different. i couldn't stop this sorrow in me.The weakest part of me is not when i am facing troubles, but its when they are related to my love ones. Somehow I'm helpless because i am not able to change anything. Thinking about the worst it could turned out brings me fear. i rather be the one in that position because i knew somehow there is someone for me where i can always share my problems with but its different when it happens on her. i can imagine the pain is unbearable in this situation. i can only pray for this to be changed.   

in the class

These were what i saw once i open my eyes after i fall asleep in the lectures (sorry you need to bend your head to look bcos i no matter how i rotate it but it still look like this when i upload them here @_@)

Fish drawn by hong san when my eyes were closed...after i just wrote 2 lines of notes. this shows how fast i get asleep in class, and how bored the lecture was.

the 'birthday wishes" he wrote in my note book and 'signed' by him and yokejia~ again reminding me (PS: don not fish in the class)

this is the 'artistic' drawings of him again, during pharmacology class. i woke up and saw my note book was not in place and i saw he stole my book for drawing this.so funny because he even draw a pond and fishing rode, fish pail bla bla bla....and wrote
'' FRUITFUL FISHING OF PHARMACO''
i think i really slept a lot for this class
* the ''B" is the mark i gave him after seeing this and he went speechless

the very dull cupboard

i realised as the years passed, the colours in my cupboard are getting darker and darker,
and i remembered i used to have many pink clothes,and also other bright colour clothes... not because i like pink that much, but i just think that i looked good in pink (because it make my skin looks fairer :P)
BUT NOW, when i look through my clothes,what i can see the most is just BLACK and GREY...:(:( blame the fact that black is the best colour when you got lots of fats to hide. the mystic of slimming effect for fat girl like me
i realised my outfit are getting so DULL and BoreD nowadays. very bad. i seriously need to get more colourful and brightening clothes now.

最近的生活只可以用两个字形容
忙。
烦。
学业和生活的压力也跟着来
人家说，压力会让人喘不过气来，
现在的我真的喘不过气来，但是一直还没找到能医治的方法。
我决定要去验血，和做螺旋杆菌测试，因为医生建议我查看是不是肠胃问题，
说来容易做来难啊~换成今天在美里就好~没有自己的交通去哪儿都难，加上时间有限，想要看专科医生却总是打退堂鼓，不到病情严重的地步总是不理~唉~~~我很讨厌这样的自己，什么事情都做不好
正常舒畅的呼吸对我来说是奢侈品。。。
失去后才懂得它的珍贵
真的真的希望这些问题毛病可以离开，
我的·要求不高，我只要能正常的呼吸就好

Photos

Holidays in Melaka

Nicole, Sze Ne & Me

The very ARTISTIC brick wall of the fort. The historical sites in Melaka are beautiful.

Eating Satay Celup. We reached at 12++AM !! but still need to queue up for a seat :( quite disappoint because i think it doesnt taste any better than the other satay celup in Melaka though...and we waited for so long to be seated.
i was dead tired that time and full but still i ate the satay, this is because we had being waiting the queue for so long so i think i must not waste my effort~ *eat also can tired*...

this is the famous 'Bread chicken' in Kampar. The bread were HUGE, and the chicken were wrapped inside the bread. But the waiter had cut the bread when they were served on our table~ this bread is an expensive one~~ we spent almost RM 90++ just for 2 chicken bread and another dish of pork meat. @_@

Excited face of Kah Hong! We're heading to Jonker Street! hungry faces of us. Going to seek for FOODS!

Having Baskin Robin Ice cream at the Rest Station because the weather was so hot.

taken up at the Fort. all The Guys were wearing checkers that day! except Kah Hong! Everyone were looking good. :)

More photos to be shared next time

memories are to be kept

大头贴!!

we took this together before ending our Melaka trip~just for fun! :):)

it was like a mess because 9 of us tried so hard to make sure everyone can squeeze into the photo, and we failed many times.

 there's also time limit for the photo shooting time and also time for us to edit and add stuffs like the background, blings, frame...etc etc... to the photo.

we used too much time to take photos so we ended up lack of time to edit the photos and we simply adding in everything we can ( very messy big head sticker we got)

gonna miss the good times we had!i love all my friends~

I'm getting afraid because holiday is going to end soon and i got many more assignments and reports left uncompleted...:(

Road trip to Melaka

We had this 4 days 3 nights road trip, 9 of us travelling with 2 cars.
Our journey starts like this
SP (had our dim sum & depart)> Ipoh ( had the tauge chicken rice & drive around Ipoh & went to Ipoh parade) > Kampar (had the famous 'Chicken Bread", a very huge one) > Selangor (visited Nai Hui's place and stayed overnight there) > KL (2nd day) > Melaka (stayed 3 days 2 night there) > KL (passed by turned around there) > Penang( visited Nicole's house for a while) > & finally back to Kedah SP last night.
Had lots of fun and i think i ate too much foods. Because Melaka is all about foods and Historical town. Every time I reached Christ church, i still fall in love with it, and all those historical places, the antique decorations of the shops there. I just Love Melaka. :):)
Most of the time Annie and I was sleeping in the car, and the guys do the driving,  because i was so sleepy and tired all the time...except the time when we were not sitting inside the car.
Too bad i didnt brought along camera this time so i cant take lots of photos. the photos are all with Sze Ne's camera and some with others hp.Will upload when i get them.
time is passing very fast, tomorrow gonna be Thursday and i got lots of assignments and reports to be done.
But i'm glad that i dont have class at Friday, so i have more holidays. Glad that  i can temporarily stay off from the hectic life now.

clinical pharmacy training

My group was assigned to do clerk case today, luckily the pharmacist who guided us this afternoon didn't asked us too much of difficult questions, our task was quite simple compare to other groups.....so i gotta prepare harder before my turn to rotate to those more difficult clinical practice. here it starts the life of doing assignment again, we get our 1st assignment this sem, many more to come@_@
after clinical training, almost the whole batch of our class went to Ramadan (again*this is the 3rd time i went in 2 weeks time), and met AMCF friends! Dixon, Li Long, Constance and Xuan Xuan! They were buying their dinner there too! i didn't bought much food because most of the foods were not so healthy, and i am trying my best to cut down those unhealthy foods in my diet now, since i haven't start cooking my own food recently and ate outside almost everyday. i'm looking forward for the one week Hari Raya Holidays! woohooo~~~~not sure whether it is one week or only 4 days? hopefully the faculty will make Friday as a holiday for us! :)

starting the 1st clinical pharmacy class tomorrow in general hospital

i am nervous now because tomorrow will be the first day we need to go to the general hospital for clinical pharmacy training. And i think i don't know anything.
What i had learned in previous years was too much for me to remember since i got pea size brain. :(
so i took out my pharmacology 1,2,& 3 notes from deep inside the box where i kept all my notes inside, and wanted to have a glance of it, this is the only thing i can prepare for i guess.... but it was too much, its impossible to go through the whole stacks of notes in one night~

i am gonna sleep earlier now  before 11pm, and pray that i can wake up earlier tomorrow morning to put some effort to go through some of the drugs name and uses. i wonder since when i get so hardworking and tell you i didn't even watch PPS now because i told myself i should quit watching so much of TV shows when i got so much things to do in my list!!. Good night people!

Baling Hot spring

 I went to Baling hot spring for the first time last Friday night with my batch mates.
 we thought it was quite near to SP but actually not that near, we spent one hour and half to reach there and it was raining all the way, the rain never stopped and we're afraid that what if they don't let us to enter because the rain is too heavy? Lucky us, the rain was no longer heavy when we reached. and it was 10p.m. when we reached there.
we soaked for one hour plus i guess, reluctant to leave even though the water is getting hot as the rain stops...because we spent so much time for the journey~~
finally we left there at around 1a.m.
this is funny, we wanted to go hot spring for healthier body but then we need to stay up till late night for it....
After that we went to have supper at a mamak stall and finally reached home at 3a.m. very 'early' in the morning....
Get so tired and sleepy after hot spring, but still need to take shower after reaching home at 3am @_@

Hong san. Bill. Me. Annie. Chia Chean =) after hot spring

12 of us altogether, the group photo which is taken by the worker there before leaving.
i guess he dont know how to use a camera because the photo is very 'unbalanced'