when you're not strong enough and gave chance for those emotions to conquer you...

Tried hard to figure ways to chase away those irritating emotions that surrounded me for days, 

and please just leave me alone....

Seriously need a clear piece of mindset to proceed for everything,

which I knew is much more important in life

I wanted to held time tightly

but they were gone in nowhere i can't see them

No where to find them back

Its not TGIF

but OMGIF!! 

Get myself motivated a bit each day!

"IT'S NOT THAT I'M SO SMART, IT'S JUST THAT I STAY WITH PROBLEMS LONGER."
~ALBERT EINSTEIN~

Yes i may not be smart as others, i got lots of troubles facing with my academic studies, especially those involved with formulas and numbers... i may not understand well what i had been taught in the lecture like those clever ones. BUT I'm definitely not giving up! What to do is to just stay with those "problems" a bit longer than others, and not forget to pray and cast my burden to God. This does help me a lot! :)

what i must always do before study

it is CRUCIAL for me to clean and tidy up every single little corner before study week
because if i am not doing so, i will end up studying half way and go off to do those tidy and cleaning house chores. So, i rather take some time and do it before i start my revision.
and i learned that a TIDY & CLEAN place is important for me to concentrate and study well!
swept all those spider webs, tidied up my messy room, and cleared the kitchen and living room, cleared the bird nest on my window (Yes, the bird had built a nest on my windows for months and now the baby birds were gone so i cleared them off from the window)
Spent one WHOLE afternoon to clean the house and no, its not done yet, the work had been delayed to the next day because i went out for swimming and dinner then~
Finally.... the house is clean~
sent the printer for repair again this afternoon (the 2nd time in 2 weeks time!!!!luckily it can be repaired and they didn't charged me!if not i gonna spent lots of $$ for the printer again@_@)
and finally, bought some groceries to survive throughout the study week!

semester break a.k.a. study week

its kinda hard to believe that time had reached the mid-semester break! (sem break=study week) and we gonna have Mid-semester exam soon.
But seems like everyone around me are starting to have their holidays and going for vacations! (especially 2 of my best sisters!) And i am now stuck in SP and my house all alone for this week~
i knew badly that its not the time for me to have fun, i shall study HARD! Need to get myself concentrate on my academic and also my soul with me   & start my revision! Some self discipline is MUST for me~
Just attend the short briefing for the coming SPA interview on April, its time for all of us to get prepared for our future PRP attachment in hospital. I wonder how it could be to work as a government servant? since I'll be the first ever person in my family to work for the government. Hopefully i can get my first choice of placement, so i can work in Miri and stay with my family. :)

It had been a while~ Industrial Training days!

Found Those photos from my Phone memories, which were taken almost many months back :P

Good old memories, though we don't really have a good place to stay ( we stayed in shop house) but we have great friends around so who cares~

Those days had been a trap for me to eat and gain all those FATS! 

because we eat outside everyday, and this seriously made me to gain weights easily!

we visited night market so often that we almost went to every night market nearby the place we stayed

we went shopping every weekends because we seriously have nothing better to do

we searched the best spots for getting wireless Internet connections all the time to get connected on-line.

we visited Big Apple Donut every week not because we love donuts that much, but that is the best place to get connection and air cond at the same time :P

we went KFC not to get the finger-licking good chicken only, but also to find a place for on-line when we had too much time for the weekends, and also to work on our reports! :)

we got no games to play so we bought MONOPOLY and played it over and over again, yet still find it so much FUN!

when the weekends seems so long and we have no idea what to do, we went to cinema for movies almost every weekend.

when our free times are even longer, we bought snacks and watched movies at our very own "Home Theater"

Sometimes we get too free and we spent our time to wander around the grocery departments having nothing much to buy, but just to get rid of the extra time without going back staring on the ceilings for hours before getting to bed.

Went to DAORAE Korean BBQ

The KIMCHI soup. But i still prefer the one in SP :)

The couple! Bill & Annie

Bil Stole my HP and took this photo of his face to set it as my wallpaper, shocked me when i saw my HP~

Donuts!!!

lazy to rotate again... Mary with her laptop, on her way doing her report

Oh donuts! I love you once in a blue moon! too sweet for me~

The happy meal! McD

Mary & Me

Sze Ne 

Bill & Sze Ne

Bill! This was our dinner after our LAST DAY of Industrial Training!

Bill and Nai Hui! 2 big boys happily eating their dinner! 

The lovely couple~

Mary & Lily....Celebrate the end of our training days! :)

Glad to have you guys as my good friends, companion for the whole training period!
and Miss all those tough and fun times we had together! 

when you had no words to describe
mixed feelings overloaded
you knew you are not supposed to think in that way
you knew its unreasonable to raise your thoughts...where you are not supposed to,
so you keep your words to yourself.
you knew its alright but not right at the same time
you already knew that it is supposed to be like this
but you still put that little hope to wish that it will be in the other way round,
you wished that there will be a better way,
you wished that you can actually tell what's going on but you have no idea.
To get the best out of best
Find a way to escape and get rid of all those thoughts
you ignored whatever popped in your mind
you see it as you cant see them
you are always good enough  in persuading yourself to pretend that this is not real
you closed your eyes as if you cant see through what you don't wish to see
you pretend that everything is just as right
you found a tunnel and you wish to hide just right there
but you knew that its not okay when you keep yourself to yourself all the time
so you make that to a way which will lead you to the brighter side where the grass are greener and the air are fresher,  which may be good though
you hate the way that you make little thoughts so complicated
but this is life
get some fresh air and view everything on a wider perspective
you should love the way that you force yourself to learn when there is no better option
you live the best of yourself in hard times because you learned to be brave and accept challenges
when you cross over that barrier you will then look back and realize there's not big deal
because you knew that you have the best weapon-" The Almighty God" with you!

Class Trip to Alor Star General Hospital

Its a tiring Monday~ 

Guess its because i hadn't took enough sleep

From last Friday night until Sunday night, I hadn't had a proper sleep.

and spent most of my time on the journey to here and there...

After coming back from Perak for the short mission trip at Sunday night, where i had sat in the van for hours and hours until my butt hurts... again the next day I'm spending my time on the bus again @_@

We visited the TPN department and briefed by the pharmacists there for the TPN preparation in the hospital. My eyes almost closed while listening to the briefing....so tired and sleepy!

Left to Right: Bill, Mary & Annie

Don't know where to go.....waiting for the pharmacist

a Photo of Me , Mary & Nai Hui

Class photo of Batch 4 Pharmacy Students! some are missing though After finish our visiting and waiting for the bus to come and bring us to have our lunch! =D

Disney on ice

Watched Disney on Ice last Friday night with friends! Finally...and good times always passes fast...

The weather is not treating us so good that night, it's a rainy day and the sad case is that we don't have any umbrella in our car T.T

but this doesn't spoiled my mood that night, enjoyed the show much! and reminds me of the childhood memories when i saw those Disney characters appeared in front of my eyes as real !! :):)

overall, i enjoyed the show and salute them for skating so graciously!

Before the show starts...:)

Took photo of my friends!

Say cheese! Everyone is looking good!

Take 2! My friends are cute! 

Another group photo! Finally I'm in! but a bit blur....sad case,no pleasant group photo of me inside~ but still can see my face lar~

Annie, me & chia chean 

Lovely Annie & me ! Best friend! :D

waiting for the show to start! *excited*

The clown!

It's Mickey!

This is cute! the "broom" dance! The dancers dressed up like a broom~ 

"Halloween" scene (Mickey & the Skeleton)

Mickey & Minnie!

Aladdin & his princess! she's so beautiful!

Beauty & the Beast

Cinderella & Prince charming! 

All the fairy tales characters

As usual, the " live happily forever" scene :P

There's a short break in between and we went to have a look at the stall outside, selling all sorts of Disney products~ Quite pricey but many parents bought it for their kids! 

"Tarzan" ?? Its Burning on ice! 

This is the "fan dance" , while Minnie is wearing the Japanese costume (the "Japan scene")

This is cute! (China scene) and a bit weird because the Ang Mo's are playing with Dragon dance! 

Guess what?? Toy story ! 

The ending of the show.. all the characters came out and dance in the ."Snow".

The story line of the show is not that interesting, and i didn't pay much attention to it, but enjoyed watching how they dance and performed throughout the show.
Anyhow, it was Nice! We were so excited for the entire show :)