Christmas Day

I am glad, though i am so busy these days, but i spent my Christmas with my family and offered my precious time to serve GOD by joining church choir team. I hadnt have much fun and happenings this year for christmas, because i am mentally and physically tired most of the time. Had no extra time to think and plan for any fun these days.

Thinking of one year back, i didnt attend Christmas church service and it was a shame. I was in KL preparing for Christmas Shopping. Two years back, i went for celebrating christmas in KL and Singapore, countdown for the big day with the crowds, yes it was very much fun, but i knew it was also a shame because i couldnt wake up to attend christmas church service too. I had gave myself so many excuses. Christmas supposed to be the day that Christians are celebrating the born of Jesus Christ, to spread the good news to peoples. But it was too much of commercial influence for Christmas these days, and i knew that i was very much tempted for all these happening events and forget about the true meaning of christmas supposed to be.

So, I was really glad that i am now spending my time to serve God now, though i cant do much but i will try my best!  

How to make a balance between work and life? i couldnt make it right now....
i work during working hours, but after working hours i still have no excuses for leaving them behind, those knowledge that i need to pick up one by one, i knew i couldnt do them in a day, i couldnt make myself perfect in a day, it takes time, and of course a lot of hardship.
I wouldnt force myself to study so hard during those college days, because at the end its just about the marks and grading which i dont care for too much, living life to the fullest had always be my priority,
But now my perspective had changed, it is a must for me to improve myself before this one year gone.
No matter how tired after work, there is no excuse to sleep early or take rest, because time is so limited, i wish i could have 48 hours a day now. its still a long road to go....

my second week of working life

I must say that this week is not an easy week!

only the second week of working, not that my workload is a lot, but it because of the responsibilities that i have, i must work harder to be better.

i give up all the dance classes last week because i couldn't duplicate myself for so many tasks

Since the orientation ends, we never get to go home in time, reached home at 630 for the first day, 8pm next day after fetching mom from airport, and 7pm Friday. T.T

No OT can be claimed though...

But no matter how tiring it was, there is still responsibilities at home, still, the house chores must be carry on as usual. 

That's not yet the end, i need to study and revise to improve, and also complete the everyday task, which is to write medical review and the diary book to report our daily activities, and complete for the assignments gave by preceptor. This is so much for me, it stressed me up and i don't even feel like talking much at home those days, i had no more extra energy and time. Everyday is same tiring, even weekends. But i am telling myself not to have excuse not to serve God, trying my best to attend all the choir practices now. Hope that this coming week will be better and i can manage my time more effectively!

Mixed feelings on the first week of work

Thanks God, i get my first posting in Miri, which is my first choice.
The moment had finally came, went to report duty at JKN Kuching this Monday, and the result had finally released at 1pm! Excited to knew that 3 out of 4 of us get posted to MGH, we got companions and not alone! :) i couldn't ask for more, when i get the chance to work with my best friends whom i had studied with, went for training together, used to stay together and have fun together! That's really good!
At the same day, we took the afternoon flight and flew back to Miri.
Working day started since the next morning!
Its just the orientation week for us, but i can feel the stress i had for myself....
working life isn't going to be easy, and i knew it, but to make a balance between your work and family, and even friends, that could be even harder.
i knew i couldn't ask for more, i am having my posting at my hometown, where i had EVERYTHING, that's true when i say it. i got the most important thing in my life which is my family, my priorities in life will always be my family. i don't need to find a place to stay, i doesn't need to find for transport, basically i have everything i need for living.
but why still stressed me up? its because i can feel that it wont be that easy to make a balance between them.
i used to spent most of my time for family, but now i left that little time after working hours, and tired, but i still need to fulfill my responsibility in the family. One day i will get really tired of these and get explode, and i don't want them to happen. even doing house chores can be that annoying, i used to love doing all these for my family because i love them much, serving them makes me happy. But now i am really tired to think of it, the moment that i wished i could have take a rest when i reached home after whole day of work, i also knew that i supposed to cook dinner for my family in the kitchen, because if i don't do so it will be mom's burden when she came home even late. i am just tired of those responsibilities i need to take.....
maybe sooner or later i will get used to it. However, I'm still ready to accept the challenges coming, no one is perfect, practice makes things get perfect. :)