hide me

if time turns back, i'll choose not to be so careless.

but the clock will only rotate clockwise,never it will be anti-clockwise

oh gosh...i wish that someone can dig a hole for me and i would hide myself inside *shame*

stupid me always do stupid things. arghhhh.....

my 1st week of class in sem 2

this week is indeed a horrible week

still cant get used of the new timetable

and the worse is i haven't start most of the practical sessions yet

hard to imagine how will it be next week when all the practical starts

till now,i am still free from writing reports

i just gave myself the target of glancing through my lecture notes for each day

but not very success

still following up on weekends

i thought i should have finish reading them and start to make some short notes so i can study easier next time

or i am going to burn the midnight oil at the last minute again

i hope it wouldn't happen

i am not used to many things yet

my class is back to 3rd floor of library now

which i can consider it as an igloo in the library building

and the green bugs are terrifying

the invadeD our hostel and died the next morninG

i got goose bumps when i saw them lying everywhere in the living room when i woke up in the morning

what makes me sweep in the morning while i am rushing to my class too?

THE ANSWER is the green little creatures which died and spread scarily on the whole floor

i tell u its really SCARY!!

imagine that u cant hardly walk on the floor and have walk tiptoeing on it

the bugs had became my enemy

they caused me allergy and made ugly spots on my skin

i wish i could stay in an aircond room and close all the window and doors so they have no way to come in

but it was too sad,

my room got many 'holes' for the insects to come in

lousy....

and i hate they appear in my room so much

my medicine would be not enough for me if the bugs continue to sting me

and the Internet connection got some problem now

or maybe is the modem

bcoz the wireless at our unit cant be used

get even mad of this again...

my weekend, hope it Will be a nice and relaxing one.

i need more energy for next week's lecture

forget to mention that i am still falling asleep in class,

i wish this will not happen anymore... :(

about myself

this going to be a post about myself that maybe not much ppl knew about it
what i am going to share about is some random facts about myself

i sometimes wonder about what does ppl think of me at their first sight, or when they 1st knew me.
i get different answers
kind,
polite,
never get angry
(its not that i dont get angry, is bcoz i CHOOSE TO FORGIVE)
....bla..bla..bla...
but the most special answer i get is what made me surprised
someone told me that i am proud
i wonder why
and i think and think
then i get the answer.
whenever i am in a comfortable situation among friends or ppl i know,
i will face them with A smile :)
but then
when i am not in a good mood
or i get nervous
or i am in someplace that is not so safe for me
(eg:when i am taking bus alone..going places alone...)
i will take away my smile
and then pretend to be someone that looks cool
u wont see me in this face if you're my friend,
bcoz i only show this "face" when i am alone in a crowd or place that i am not used to,
i personally think that this is one of the way i can protect myself.

i also thought of what i am
i think i am quite optimistic all the time,
i don't get sad of things in life easily,
I'll always try to think on the positive side for everything that happens,
whenever someone is doing something wrong,
i Will first think about what are the true reasons that made them do so,
but one thing that will made me sad and disappointed if is when someone betrayed me,
and also backstabbers.
if u know me then u will know that i don't easily get angry if u tell me i am
fat
not pretty
not clever enough
cant sing well
cant draw well
clumsy
not good in playing piano
have lousy driving skills
and bla bla bla...
Because those imperfection are caused BY myself,
my parents born me as a healthy person, and they already gave me the best they could.

AND............
there's Another thing that could really HurT me
which i could not deny
i got a soft voice vocal,and moderately low voice,
which could never be changed in my whole life
i still remember how ashamed i am in my secondary class
our very strict English teacher insisted that all of us must go to the front and read out loudly from the text book
i was so nervous that time
because the class is so big (50++ students in a class)
and she wants to hear us read out very loud from the last row in the class
( normal voice could not satisfied her)
and i almost cried out because i was asked to repeat and repeat the sentences even though i had shout my voice out
that was a nightmare for me

until now
i finally felt better because i study in an aircond room now
there's no need to shout so loud anymore
its difficult for me because when i wants to be loud like others,
i have to put a bigger effort to do it.
so,
whenever i am asked to be louder
this nightmare is repeating in my mind,
i really HATE it a lot when someone wants me to speak LOUD,
so dont blame me if u couldnt hear from me,
instead of asking me to speak loud
i prefer if ppl kindly just tell me that they cant hear from me.
or if i am just not happy,
i Will pretend not to listen,

to keep myself far far away from the nightmare.

invisible words

i suddenly realised that my previous old posts are so colourful
and some even cant be seen because of its colour~~
sorry about this,
let me explain why
bcoz the previous background is very dark, to make it as a bigger contrast for an easier view,
i had chosen all those very light colours as the colour of words.
now, i changed the background of my blog to a brighter one,
the words in turn had become almost invisible.
too lazy to change the colour anymore, so just let it be! :P

我是米虫~~

the calendar had reached Saturday now,
i'm getting nearer and nearer to the starting of my new semester.
not sure whether i am ready for it.
i never felt bored in the hostel until now, bcoz i was so busy, busy watching all the dramas and doesn't realised that the time had passed.
now, i had become the"米虫" that jim jim used to be~ hahaha...
i woke up and eat, watch dramas... , sleep.
the house work that i need to do is clean the small corner in my room only.
but soon,it will be different.
the new timetable is going to kill me.
so i am thinking about my resolution in this 2010 year and my new semester,
i shall study even harder and be wise to arrange my time now, and another more! i shall set a budget for my monthly expenses now.

my last term result had been sent home, oh i was finally so relieved,
the organic chemistry which i thought i could have failed if i have nott done well in my final exam,
because i get super low marks in my mid term exam,
but owh....i passed!!! =D
and overall i am satisfied with my own result, since i am not setting very high target to torture myself for studying die hard, i just couldn't.

goyang kaki life in hostel for one week

i am back to my kampung now, trapped in the hostel for one week before class going to start.
but as a positive thinker, i don't feel its so bad to be back here so early, bcos there one more holiday awaiting me after one month, exactly, yeah~

but now i got a real big problem, that's everyone seeing me will ask me why do i appear in the campus so early b4 everyone come back?
i wish i could record it and play it when anyone ask me the same question again and again. =.=''' (instead of explaining the whole story, i would just tell them i want to come back early to study die hard and squeeze in the dean list, stupid crap...)

its actually bcoz i booked my flight ticket very very very early last time and there's changes in the timetable, bcoz i don't want to waste $ for changing the date of my ticket, its cost more than 150 i think,since i need to change both of the flight ticket, what a waste.
Besides, i will just be back here one month and i can go back again in Chinese NY, so i don't think i need to change it.
Meanwhile, i can settle myself down here earlier and get prepared for my new semester.
and also watch as much drama as i could b4 class starts.

But now i am mad of the green bugs that visited my room every night in a bulk group, the bite and made me my skin allergic last time so i super hate them!
and they have short life spam, many die on the floor in the morning, and its an ugly sight u can see on the floor!! what to do?
i got no idea how to prevent them to appear in my room.

curls all gone

i had wrote this post a few days ago but only post it here now.

Lily had her curls gone and straight hair back now.
This should be considered good or bad?
the good one is i finally can comb my hair now after one year, and my hair is damn long now i think. :) the super like to comb hair girl is back now :P
the bad one is that there is no more waves on my hair now, and i cant wash my hair and had to let the chemical stay on it for a few days, which i don't like it. but luckily, the chemical does not smell that heavy and bad this time, its just fine.

The HAppY oNe:
Esther, Evelyn and Me meet up together in Miri, at SOHO.
and i am not shy to say that i had never being to there although i am a Mirian,
because i had being such a good girl staying at home every night,hahaha....
Bil was in his kampung, so he can't come along with us.
I'm so excited to see Esther after more than a year i didn't seen her :D
she still look the same, but getting prettier and gain some weight due to the good food she had in Australia. Not like me gaining weight due to the super extra oily food which taste like XXX in Jaya Catering.@_@
we gossip to update whats happening around us
the busy body me also visited her new house in pujut 2, so that i know the location next time, it is much nearer to my house now, that's good! :)

Esther & me, with my straight hair~

The crazy one:
since i cant online yesterday, due to some problem on pc,
i turned on my laptop and search for the drama in it to watch,
then i was so addicted to it,
and i am so eager to watch the next episode,
from morning until night i am watching,
wow!!i watch 18 episode in a day! and finished 30 episode in 2 days. i'm going crazy...

the history of my hp numbers

TODay,
i am officially not a celcom customer anymore :(
i went to terminate my 019 number,which i had used for 2 years,
which is so superb bcoz the line connection is always so good that it can reach at any place.

talk about the story of the phone number i had used,
i think it was a sad story,
the 1st number i used is my favourite number, 0168618905, which was just a number difference from jim, hers is 0168618900, that's y i love this number a lot.... but due to many reasons, i stop using this number, and not reloading it, so the number is gone at Nov,09.
mainly i am using celcom,and i use 8905 just to msg my best friends sometimes, so i am not using much on it, but i need to reload every month to activate it, i felt that it was a waste.
And the other reason is that i found my new love, which is Digi Campus plan, which is much more cheaper for sms and calling, and it doesn't need me to reload every month, the most important is that the expired date is 4 years!
so, i am so sorry to jim jim ,who still using the pretty number which we had once upon a time...

and next, i felt sad too when i terminate my celcom number, the moment i walked out of celcom office, my 019 number doesn't exist anymore, and i am afraid that i didn't informed all of my friends that i am no longer using that number, and lost contact with them.

but, i do this so because digi offered such a package which suit my needs exactly, i don't like to have my phone number inactivate whenever the expire date reaches, even though there is credit in it, and this saves me a lot of $ too :P
so, now i got my new number in used, saying bye bye to all those old numbers.
2010, a new year, a new start, a new number going with me for the next journey.
(**to my friends: if i did not informed u my new numb, u can ask me to get for it)